Day 27: Guilty Pleasures

• I feel guilty right after I am upset. I would always end up feeling like the worst person alive. I wish I don't have to be this impatient. I wish I don't have this short temper. I wish I will always be graceful under pressure. I wish I can manage my mind and control my reactions wisely.
• I feel guilty right after I talk about other people. Even if it's for fun or just a mention about another person in any of my conversation with my husband, family, friends, or peers. It just does not feel right. Although it can  be "rationalized" when I sort of rant and vent out frustrations and disappointments, I still can't be comfortable about it.
• I feel guilty when I hide things. I tend to keep things to myself until it just erupts without warning. Then, I get to be very illogical. I wish I can be expressive. Then maybe I can tame my temperament.
• I feel guilty when I buy things for myself. There is no point. I don't really need a lot. Besides, I do not go elsewhere. Being frivolous is like an illusion, and I am just kidding myself. No, these things do not make me pretty nor do they make me rich. They do not make me holy and they do not make me happy!
• I feel guilty when the house is dirty!