Bursting

I feel like I am about to burst into tears, into nothing.

I don't like this at all. I am like a love sick fool!

I think I am going home sooner than planned.

Vent vs Rant

There is a beauty in venting out whatever comes out of your mouth to friends who listen without judging you. They are souls sent from heaven who just make you feel better in spite of... It is amazing how blabbers become so therapeutic despite its incoherence and nonsense. I thank God for the many blessings He has given me. I thank God for friends like you!

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On the other note, I rant and rant these days. The mood swings drive me crazy(ier)! I feel like there is an amazona waiting to come out of my body armed ready to behead anybody who crosses my way. I am feisty and sometimes petty. I wonder how long this will last because I never experienced this in my first pregnancy... I always find myself being impatient, irritable, critical, and hostile. I open my mouth without thinking. God knows I may get into trouble one of these days. This explains why I am better off at home with my family or out and about but with myself only.

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There are so many things to rant about, yet so many treasures to be grateful for. I'd rather be grateful than otherwise. After all, life is too short for this nonsense. Oh please help me...

I am terribly missing my husband. Last night, I cried myself to sleep. Yes Mai, when the lights are off it's okay to cry. The pangs of loneliness and having to go through the night without that strong arm around you is petrifying. But I woke up alright, I didn't die, I'm okay. I got the bug and so did the little one. Soon this household will be having coughing fits and runny nose.

The 'busy happy' can help me get through this, afterall in a few weeks time I will be back to Colorado. I would really like to enjoy my pregnancy joys and worry about the little woes with my husband. Never mind that I am living like the queen bee here. I miss our little family together in our own little nook. Soon...

As predicted, the little one woke up looking for his dad and cried a little. No tantrums, thank God but his cough sounds terrifying. Sigh! I just want to sleep... but I need to see a doctor just in case my son needs some medication.

Sunday, lazy day. I wish my man was here. Sundays are too sad without him... =(

The Movie Date

It was unplanned. Our first time to ever watch a movie together, alone., since we became parents. We both enjoyed it, not because of the movie but because it made us relax. Movie theaters used to be our secret nook to make out and whatnot, but now it has become a place of respite. I can smell the aroma of salonpas in the not so distant future with how our lives have changed now. We laughed about the thought!

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The husband is now on board his flight back to Colorado. We are terribly missing each other. And I am sad and sad. I don't know how to pick myself up. I am worried about him because he will come home to an empty house with a viral infection. I wished his doctor here could have just told him to stay a bit longer. I never want to see him sick.

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After our sumptuous lunch with dear friends, I treated him for a full aromatherapy massage. What do you know.... oh well, we met the source of my constipation the entire day. Never mind. I will sleep it off. I will laugh it off. I am in a better place to even fuss about it.... summoning all the positive energy this universe can bring. OHM!

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The little one sobbed when I told him his Dad is leaving for Colorado. I almost cried with him. I had to distract him with tickles and magic so he will laugh again. Tomorrow, I don't know what will happen when he finds out Dad is no longer in Minglanilla.

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I wanted to kick myself in the spine when I saw a missed call from him. I was already in the bathroom when he rang a few minutes before his flight took off. I never want to miss moments like this. Sigh! Oh, soon we don't have to say bitter goodbyes anymore... SOON!

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Cherish the moments you spend with your loved ones... or it will pass you by.

Silent But Not Quiet

Since the husband arrived last September 5, I have been back on my feet and felt like a headless chicken wandering around Cebu City and Metro Manila while trying to find the most comfortable posture and whatnots to enjoy leisurely my time spent with him.

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I had the great time spending the early afternoons and evenings with the Siroy! I know how wonderful it is to live within her neighborhood... I wish we didn't have to leave... SIGH! I love Makati (at least the business district), and I remembered how I enjoyed my time around the area when I was still a lot younger and a bit foolish. I enjoyed Greenbelt the most, with all those kiddie and mommy shops along with Timezone and Gymboree too!

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We've been meeting friends and business associates. We've been feasting and feasting. Argh! Good thing I didn't gain much after all that.

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I roasted myself but obviously enjoyed it! I like swimming at high noon when the sun is at its fury! I am sore but grinning. It was good to see the team enjoy and relax after a long weekend at the exhibit and a banquet.

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Tomorrow, is his birthday and I am excited! We are preparing a little celebration with just family and the team...

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And now I am sad... I don't want him to leave. Our little family is sooo at home here now!!! Plus, he is not really oh too well. I hope he doesn't have dengue. Hahay!

Blessings

This is our first time to be together as family in our new home in Minglanilla. Well it's an old house, but it's a new home for us. The little one is very happy to have his dad around. I can see his eyes excited and always cheerful! Cebu is indeed home, if only we can stay here together forever... I am happy to be blessed with my little family and the big family living in this nook. Sometimes I wish we can uproot the space we got in Colorado and move it back here. Hehehe!!!

The Battle That Is Homework

I never thought it would be this hard! But the daily worksheets of my son may have stressed me out to some degree and I may have traumatized him too. He cried a couple of times because I have been such a monster of a tutor. I have no patience and clearly being pregnant makes me even worse! This is only one subject... waah!