Next month, I will be a year older and couldn't be more excited. My husband and I are planning to throw a thanksgiving party to our dearest friends here who have showered us with love, prayers, gifts, and support during my pregnancy and childbirth. It will also mark our little munchkin's second month, and with the ordeal that we went through it is but quite apt to celebrate life, love, family, and friends!

To the more exciting whims of the heart, I wish to get these for myself as I head on to a colorful journey of being mom twice over! Hehehe!!!

• Nars blush (orgasm)
• MAC Studio Fix Powder (NC34)
• Smashbox O' Gloss
• Eyeshadows (earth tones)
• Dolce & Gabbana Light Blue perfume
• Clinique Happy perfume
• A trip to the SPA - manicure, pedicure, wax, massage, facial, hair treatment (THE WORKS!)
• Dinner date with my husband

I just thought I need to replenish my make-up kit. I somewhat miss my big red caboodle with an entire set of Estee Lauder's whatnots! But unfortunately, I could only ask Santa once a year hehehe!

Got to write these down before my brain betrays me... sleep deprivation does that to me... spit and poop reminds me that I should not let myself go! And oh, may I also have a trimmer waistline (2-3 inches off would be lovely LOL!)

Just Because

"I knew the minute I saw her that she had Down Syndrome and nobody else did. I held her and cried. Cried and panned the room to meet eyes with anyone that would tell me she didn't have it. I held her and looked at her like she wasn't my baby and tried to take it in. And all I can remember of these moments is her face. I will never forget my daughter in my arms, opening her eyes over and over ... she locked eyes with mine and stared ... bore holes into my soul.

Love me. Love me. I'm not what you expected, but oh, please love me." - Kelle Hampton

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I am bawling at the middle of the night just because I read this while browsing through my emails. The wonder and joys of motherhood is truly a blessing. One cannot really fathom how much love a mother can feel... and the words above just got to me. The rigour of my second childbirth is still very fresh, not to mention my wound. The fact that my little bambino came out safe and healthy for a premie means a lot to me! I look at him and he's this fragile being hungry for my love and affection. I grew another heart solely just for him.

Why am I crying? I am a mother. I know.

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Just one of those nights... when crying proves to be the healthier option. I had a grand time sleeping in late in the afternoon because my husband was home to take care of the boys. It was snowing and I asked him to work from home. The last thing I want to do is worry if he's safe in the highways. Oh well, it wasn't that nasty today compared to last night, but he was home all right!

Right before bedtime, I snuggled and tickled with my big baby. I brushed his teeth, washed his face, massaged him with his lotion, and put on his sleeping clothes. I wanted to cry because this was just I was doing before, taking care of only him. Now, he's all big and smart (and my little helper too). Sometimes I feel guilty. I get lost in my own world, trying to recover, making sense of the world when I am sleep deprived, and too irritable to be bothered. His world has become so magical lately, but his babbles do get into my nerves especially when I just want peace and quiet. Oh I miss him! And so I made it up... I snuggled with him until he went to sleep.

My little boys are in the same room now, the biggest one had to sleep in the other room because he has to work tomorrow. It's quite a change, my husband usually sleeps soundly and now when baby shrieks he just wakes up! Ah, love!

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Sometimes I wish everything will all be wonderful and beautiful! Then again, it's all up to me.

How can you not fall in love with these two? Tell me so...

Warm Welcome

One of our closest friends in Colorado (who moved to Texas just last August) came for a surprise visit last week (just before I got really sick!)!!! It was such a delight to see and hear from them once again... if only we can get together the old gang in a heartbeat it would be more than awesome.

They never saw me pregnant hehehe! They left when I was still in Cebu and when they came back I have Miro already (way earlier than expected, as you all know hehehe!). It was funny to hear them crack jokes and make fun of each other... the house warmed. It was wonderful to have guests at this time of my life.

It was a very quick albeit sweet stop. They were heading back to Texas the next day via a twenty two hour road trip =)

Hoping to see them again this summer!

The Joys of Motherhood!

It was Miro's first trip upstairs. It was his first bath at home as well. I just thought he needed his hair washed because I haven't really freshened him up since we came home from the hospital. His tiny body was easier to handle but I was pretty much scared I may drop him. It was a delight to see him enjoy his hair washed and quite funny to hear him shriek as I wiped his body with a washcloth. His circ ring came off this afternoon so I was able to was his bottom, however his cord stump hasn't fallen yet so he can't swim just yet in the tub. I just bathe him in the sink, where I used to with Akio. It's easier than using a baby tub, it isn't too cold for baby too because I wrapped him with a towel while washing his hair.

The joy of seeing the big brother enjoy his night time shower was exhilarating! He had to step out of the shower to see his little brother bathing in the sink. Now, this blue bathroom (which suits them oh so perfectly) will be busier than before.

I am happy this time, I am more energetic despite having a C-section and saner. Every second counts and it's blissful to be spent with them. (As always Dad has to be the photographer, I promised him I will take pics of him with his boys one of these days!)

Birth Announcement

Your Love

How can I ever thank you enough? You have been a great nurse since I was on labor, until I gave birth, and now that I'm still recuperating. You have been great to our boys, never mind that you have been very tired as well. How and where do you get that energy taking care of us three? I am amazed by you...

Your boys are indeed very blessed to have you as their father. And I am the luckiest woman on the planet! ;-)

Hope you know how much I appreciate everything you are doing for our little family, for our dreams, and for us! I love you! This is such a belated valentine greeting hehehe!