I have been Christmas-happy-weepy since Thanksgiving Day. My little family set up the tree a day before the holiday here. The little one was so amazed to see the lighted tree when he woke up from his afternoon nap. The husband and I were mesmerized by how wonderful Christmas means now that we have a son and another one on the way (which we can't help but feel excited about the next year's holiday). We played Christmas songs while decorating, the little one jiggled and wiggled to Jingle Bells, Feliz Navidad, and to his now-favorite Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer. It was pure joy to be celebrating thanksgiving this way... all about family and the blessings we have been so grateful about.
The tree is now four years old, we got this fake plastic one when our son was born. That year, it was bare naked of decors, just the multi colored lights and the son's 'first' stocking. We didn't care. At least I didn't even bothered to exert effort, post partum stress does that to you (even if Christmas was my favorite holiday). Then I got a set of assorted trimmings all in silver in 2006. All these ornaments still intact and still proudly hanging up to these very holiday. Thank goodness the little one never ate one of them. He was such an angel baby.
The other day, I wept and sobbed and had to go the bathroom to hide my grieving. It's the holidays and I'm supposed to be happy. But I can't help but feel a little home sick while listening to Kasadya Ning Taknaa over youtube. I remembered my family, being a kid, seeing my parents get busy with Christmas -- preparing Noche Buena... going to Carbon at the wee hours to get fresh fruits and whatnots, listening to mananaygon, and pabuto. I miss the smell of Christmas back home, the familiar scent, the yuletide cheer despite the hard times, the Christmas in my heart.
3 comments:
apart from hormones and the season itself will lend to dramatic emotions, i can understand why you feel that way che...one day, kabaw ko, you will spend christmas in cebu..and that will be even better..it will be 4 of you soon=)
Matod nila Christmas in the Philippines is the best daw T.. maybe because we tend to flock together and really prepare for it by pigging out, buying presents (bisag nagkalisod na), meeting friends.. and all that.
Next year, I have a feeling you'll be spending Christmas here. I have a feeling I won't be here and I think I'll be the one sobbing about it na.
I love your tree. Mine has no lights.
CHEL, i hope masakto ka. but nagstorya ra mi bag-o lang ani nga lisod iuli sa pasko kay super mahal gyud ang plete =(
MAI, yah lahi ra gyud bitaw noh? come to think of it my last christmas in cebu was with my entire family, with papa pa gyud to! then naminyo nako hahay!
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