I need an elixir that will make me feel better despite all the pressures and whatnots. My lists are getting longer and I am not getting any younger. The days go by and I think I need more than twenty four hours to survive and more than one body to thrive. My chest is heavy and pounding so mightily that I feel it's crushing my very soul. I know I am being dramatic, but that is how I am now. Perhaps I am very sensitive lately because of lack of sleep, I am also very irritable. I dare not talk back nor express what I think because mostly it's something not pleasant which I know I will very much regret. So I keep them here in my thoughts, in my heart, and in my blog.
I need to gather my strength to be able to function well as a mother and as a wife, not to mention this dark cloud looming above me because being an entrepreneur is not a walk in the park. I know I am blessed and I should not be complaining... but I am human and I am subject to feeling a bit overwhelmed and as of the moment I feel like crying. It's the only healthy way to just burst!
The house is in need of a wife. The boys need someone chirpy enough to make them something to eat. I am quite resentful that I need to do all these things while some have all the time in the world and lazily snoozing somewhere in the world. I know, I am not living their lives and they are not living mine. Pero gikapoy nako!
Time is always of the essence... and at the same note I don't want to miss out on special moments just because I still want to clean and tidy up. Ay ambot! I want to feel super despite all these. A super mom is something so ideal and something so psychotic to even achieve... I will try to feel wonderful in my own way, sans the powerful bracelets and magical stone.
I think I'd go to the gym, sprint and pant, sweat everything out, clean the house, and take a looooong hot bath! I will go get a book. I still need a break, I am so worn out. If I were a shoe, I need some glue because....
Thanks for your time! Hope you had a lovely weekend =)
3 comments:
tiris, HUGS HUGS HUGS... ihilak lang na imong frustrations, maybe you will feel better afterwards. and yes, a break -- you need that! kung duol lang lagi ta bah, volunteer gyud ko babysit ni akio so you and mark can have a romantic dinner together.
hi che! oh dear, you do sound worn out, and burned out..you need a change of scenery..you need to go somewhere different, and just have a change of activities...i wish i was there, wed have a girly adventure (even for two hours,im sure Mark wont mind me kidnapping you)..=)
ask mark to move to London beh=)
Jops, I know things would be awesome if all of us live close by! Community cooking, cleaning, and baby sitting services hahaha!!! I feel a lot better after I wrote this down and cleaned the house. Most of the times my mood gets affected by chaos!
Chel, change of scenery gyud. You betcha ;-) I can't wait to take that much needed vacation w/my little family. Asa kaha mi noh? =)
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