She inspired to revisit those lovely times, the summers of my childhood... and as lovesick as I am right now, I succumb to a lot of introspection. I have this same feeling, a knot in my stomach, a tinge of longing, and worry. There are a lot of things too look forward to and a lot to be thankful for. Indeed, the future holds so much promise. Hope.
And then I remembered the summers. Most specially the summers I spent with him. Our movie dates, beach parties with friends, jeepney rides, Jollibee, Dunkin Donuts, and Dimsum. We savored the school breaks, even for only a short while. We held on to this faith that in the future we will be together. We are, now!
Life has brought us to this wonderful world of parenthood! God gave us two wonderful sons, and we are expecting our third one very soon. It certainly has changed us. Now, summers are for their childhood... that it may give them beautiful memories and promise them that future of adventure and a whole lot more!
I miss my husband. We have never gotten used to this, ever. It is sad that at the end of the day I am by my lonesome. Happy to retire from my mommy duties, but missing half of myself. His trip away from home creates this roller coaster of emotions. It may help us achieve that dream and so much more... and it feels like that promise of summer again ;-)
(Picture taken, Summer 2008 @ Sumilon)