A Slight Detour

After losing a couple inches off my waist and slowly shrinking back to my pre-baby body, this happened. A beautiful surprise indeed! My fitness regimen will take a slight detour from now on. I will not be counting how much weight I will have to lose but monitor how much I will gain. Never mind that I had five more pounds to shed and an inch to lose... now I'm hoping I will gain perhaps 25 lbs only.

I may end up frequenting this new hub... hope you visit me there =)

Little Blessings

Garden of the Gods. Colorado Springs @ July 2009

Thankful for friends who put me in perspective! I know there are so many blessings that I should be grateful for... I am sorry for ranting and complaining. I am sorry for being like this. The world is beautiful, there are so many things that make my life wonderful:

• I see my family together every day... this is a big thing in this society where both parents are off work leaving the kids to day care or school, where parents and children do not often see each other every day due to work shifts and whatnots.
• I have something to be busy of, never mind if they are brain numbing chores...
• SO many things to look forward to!

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On the other hand, my heart is crushed at the same time comforted that my friend Winnie passed away. She has struggled with cancer since 2001. May she rest in peace!

Boys and Girls

We are wired differently. I see my son interacting with girls his age, and you would understand the dynamics already at that very tender age. Boys are active and objective, girls are delicate and sensitive. Boys are full of mischiefs, girls are full of fancies.

Despite knowing the differences, some things do not end up as pleasant as I want it to be. I am afterall a woman, not a man. I am made up by my own psyche. There are little details that needs to be taken care of, there are things that should not be taken for granted. Otherwise, I get cold and that's not nice at all.

Sometimes I wish I do not have to react, to understand with so much love and compassion... but I can only do so much. I am woman, not superwoman (yet). Thus, I complain and rant but not too often though.

I may be difficult to understand, but you don't have a choice =P

The Sun

the sun kissed me and made my day!

something about this beautiful weather...

wish winters are not as dreary anymore.

i'm trying hard to pick up myself,

from a foul mood, from temper tantrums.

lately, everything is a bore.

despite all the things that i need to do.

it's funny how playing narcissa can do... LOL!

(played with the web camera to change my headshot)

H.A.P.P.Y.

The weekend that was... awesome and couldn't be more happier! Our little family went to the husband's company summer party at Denver Zoo. We went a couple hours earlier and enjoyed the zoo which our son loves so much! This picture says it all! It doesn't really take much to be happy... having my own family -- a husband and a son... need I say more?

Lord, thank you! This family has been the greatest gift so far... you know what I will say next! {Please surprise me with another gift please...}

Do you hear me,

I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

My New Baby

abangan.

Lighten The Load

Grabbed a pen and had fun with this! I discovered that I am all these based on the strokes of my penmanship:

• logical
• shy
• tensed and restricting oneself
• skeptical
• intellectually probing and ambitious

A little too boring, it may be true... hehehe!!!

Lilies, roses, tulips.

Petunias, daisies, and daffodils.

Paints the gloomy world with colors.

Someday soon, we'll be together...

Your cheeks, your giggles, your whines.

You. I can't wait to hold.

Curry: The Aftermath

THE HOUSE STINKS!!! It got worse when we close the windows last night, with the A/C on and fan the stench just sticks to you!!! As if I am haunted with this body odor following me wherever I go. I have a very strong sense of smell, maybe because God blessed me with healthier nostrils. Now, I am lighting a candle and opened the patio door and will bake something to change the aroma in this household. So far, leche flan gives the perfect smell... creamy vanilla mmmmmmmm!

On the other note, the spicy scent must have inspired me to toil with my beautiful mind. I wasn't able to sleep until almost nine this morning. I designed something and thought of a new baby for the kitchen. I am excited, I hope this works! And then I thought some more of pursuing my love for food and the arts, for my soul, for my retirement?! Hehehe!!!

Caught up with some episodes of the teleseryes too... working from home is awesome... I get to be creative, I watch TV online, I chat with friends, I do business meetings online, I do sales calls, I answer queries, feed my son, clean the house, cook, and go to the gym... everything in arm's reach... but exhausting though. Ah, I still prefer this than being cooped up in a cubicle somewhere.

My cousin will be here tomorrow have to do a mad dash tidying up the place. The husband won't be able to help me because he is not off work tomorrow argh! I've been spoiled...

Curry In My Kitchen

What to make for dinner? It helps when you have a friend an hour delayed from where you live hehehehe! Suggestions like, "why not have chicken curry for dinner?" can get you out of a cooking rut! Surely. My boys will be tired of the sweetened adobo like marinade I've been feeding them, and oh the pasta in between. Now it's time to chop those onions and potatoes, and mince the garlic.

The little one is having the time of his life in the corner. He just ripped out a dvd cover! Grrr! It's not even ours! Nonetheless, curry it is for tonight.

Maybe I will escape to the gym while it's cooking... or perhaps fold laundry? Why do I always panic when it's almost dinner time? All I did today was watch back episodes of teleseryes! Ridiculous waste of my time. You know I slept at five in the morning just because of this teleserye too?! Nabuang nako 'day!

Leche Flan

As I wait for my leche flan to cook, I finished up more than one chapter of this book I recently got from the library. It is "Everyone is Beautiful" by Katherine Center. It is light and funny and apt for moms like me, it can be quite a horror story for women who are still over the moon dreaming about babies and a life with their soon to be spouses. Although it's a quick read and nothing fancy or sort, the message about motherhood and marriage is raw and real. Which made think of the following:

• I am happy with my life, no matter how chaotic it gets. Like now! I know I need to mop and clean and whatnots, but sometimes lying down with the little one until he dozes off to nap time is sweeter.
• I am grateful and quite flattered that my friends here adore the only two native desserts I know how to make -- leche flan and maja blanca. At least I've done a few stuffs right hehehe!!!
• How odd I became post partum... how I let myself go, and drown my esteem with crazy thoughts and how I digged my own demise just because I thought it was the case. I hope I will never go through that ever again!!!
• Life is forever and always will be beautiful with the friends I have... enough said ;-)
• It's true that 99% of your happiness depends on the partner you chose... because yes, I still want to be kissed that way -- his hands holding my head and with so much passion... =P

And the leche flan is done, I have to let it cool before I shock freeze it in time for the dinner party later. I hope the little one is asleep by now, so he has enough energy and social grace to mingle with others... as I try to finish this book.

Keep Moving Forward

If you've seen the movie Meet the Robinson's, you would know what I'm talking about.... here's to failures hehehe!!! It's an awesome movie about trying hard to achieve your goals... perserverance and diligence. Let's keep moving forward!

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Another lovely week awaits... as I laze around to chill out songs in my YM radio. I plan to spend a couple hours and continue my light read while I cuddle with the bambino. I hope to start tackling the laundry room again, it has made its come back in full force! A mountain full of clothes await to be folded and tucked. No more complaining hehehe!

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We have a guest coming for the weekend. We'll attend the husband's company party at the zoo this Saturday and perhaps drive through the rockies on Sunday! Yey! That would be great, I hope I still have the energy to finish my new site...

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No point in complaining, doesn't help me one bit. I'll just have to enjoy the grind and gyrate with it... LOL!

Baby Woes

Another friend is pregnant with her second baby. I am jealous! I am happy for her... she and her husband have been trying to have their second little bundle of joy... we were pregnant buddies back in 2004. We haven't met since high school, but we've managed to chat over the phone and now on facebook. She buzzed me and told me her good news... waaah, I am jealous. When is it going to be my turn? My womb aches.

Too Much Of A Weekend

It feels like a Sunday. The husband was off on Thursday, I begged him to. He was up all night doing his project. Something we both hope will materialize (if God wills it)... I can't allow him to go to work without even a wink. We had a leisurely breakfast and slept all morning. It has been a series of all nighter, that's what I remember. But unlike him, I've been dozing off a lot more often during the day without a notice. At his office, the little one and I were playing, wrestling, and I just collasped on the floor. I woke up and it was rather late for me to put myself together to make dinner... we headed to Chili's (the little one's favorite).

Yesterday, we only had about two hours of sleep because we had an early meeting with our team in Cebu. After a hefty brunch, we took a nap and headed to the water park half an hour away from our house. We grabbed some Happy Meal and ate on our way, that was lunch. Oh the little one! He is such a water creature! We were having fun at the six inch pool hahah! How exciting! Wading and just watching him having the time of his life! It was hot but so far no burns... after that escapade we met with our friends who is pregnant again with their second child. Then we let the boys loose at some park within the city. It was a way too much of a day for the little boy! But he wasn't tired, he wanted to watch a movie by the time we got home!!!!! I had to be the monster and called it a night.

Today, I don't know why I woke up past noon! Embarrassing! We had a late lunch at four in the afternoon and what do you know, I slept while reading a book. Darn! Am I this lazy now? Am I becoming a cow? I wanted to do my usual weekend cleaning and laundry!!! Now, the kitchen is a mess and a mound-ful of laundry to be folded and tucked. I hate lazy weekends when the house is topsy turvy!!! I hate it, I can't relax.

I should go to the gym!

Mommy, Lately

The SON has kept me busy! Just like old times (as if it's that long!), we cuddle and laugh, tickle and run around the house like crazy! He's happier that way. Mommy no work, mommy all play. We watch videos in youtube, nursery rhymes, planets, etc. We sing and hop, we play, read a book, color, draw, paint, cut, paste, and sorts. At night time, we talk as if we're about the same age. It takes him forever to pack away his toys and an eternity to tell a story before he finally sleeps. But I cherish these days and moments with him, I know soon he will be too busy to be bothered by mommy.

This love, pure and wonderful, is something so precious! I am so happy! This young boy is making my life truly worth living for. He makes me feel guilty when I indulge myself with work and whatnots online. "Work again?" aaaaaaaaaaah it can tear me apart. "Mommy, can I play with you?" aaaa sweet!

While I feel like slacking with my duties as housekeeper and entrepreneur, I have been making up for my mommy duties daily with fervor and so much love. I am never going to trade motherhood for anything in the world!

Another Long Weekend

Today, was a bit lazy. Tomorrow, a party. On Sunday, rest day.

Happy 4th of July to you!!!

Happy Birthday Kaith!