I wish I had a beauty queen's body and height. A milky complexion with fine pores. I wish I can afford to maintain frequent trips to the dermatologist, the spa, and the salon. I wish to be able to indulge to all these vanity. Yes, vanity.
I fantasize about a smaller waistline, if those extra inches could just be added to my height... it will be awesome! I have a lot of self loathing going on. And why is that? I don't know. I just feel nothing like glamorous. I feel dreadful. I don't like to look at the mirror. I have painted my face daily for a week or two and stopped. It's exhausting to put up with that. I wish I'd come out perfect straight from my bed.
Who am I kidding? Yes. Vanity. It is vanity.
I wish I have a room-ful of fashionable clothes to wear. Shoes and bags to match them. Accessories to prettify me even more. Like an eye candy. Like a trophy wife. LOL! But, really?
Can someone please hire me a personal shopper? A stylist? I really don't have a clue. It eats me up always when I go through my clothes and absolutely everything is ghastly. I am ashamed. Although it feels liberating not to be attached to all these vanity.... I wish I can have more of what I have now.
Perhaps, a fat bank account. Where budget is unheard of... I can buy whatever that fancies me. Trot in heels and kick ass. But most of all, to have that time and energy to be with the kids... that kind of vanity. Where I don't have to think about anything else other than myself and my boys.... I wonder when that will happen.
For now, the dishes await. The office is screaming! It needs to be tidied up (what an understatement). And my mind, some hibernation from thinking of all these crazy things.
It was good to fantasize until it lasted LOL!
3 comments:
Che,we shall shop together once we see one another;-) i can envision playing dress up with you;-)
PS. you dont need to change how you dress to feel better.. accept that daghan mi nag admire and love nimo, and we love the way you are..matud pang Bruno Mars "coz u are amazing, just the way you are"..;-)
HAHAHA! Lingawa nako ani, Tiris!
I think every woman has done this--fantasize about a charmed life. Even those who are charmed, I'm sure, fantasize about a different life, a different appearance, and being in a different situation. All of us do. I do, everyday. But I'm sure like you, there are days when I absolutely don't want to change anything.
Dream on, Tiris! It's what we call "living"!
Chel, perte nakong katawa sa Bruno Mars! LOL!
Liz, nagkatawa sad ko nagsuwat. Dugay nako wa gasuwat gud, labi na kanang mga ka aligutgut LOL! I shocked myself that I posted this one.
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