It's just going to be all about him and me. I will make the most out of the remaining weeks left before he comes a kuya! I am sure he's going to be a great big brother and sweet little boy to us. Lately, I indulge him to sleep with me. I cuddle and tickle him before he sleeps to make up for not being able to carry him anymore. I don't want him to feel that I am always aching because of the baby.
For now, everything is overwhelming! I am quite sad that he is no longer my baby. I kept looking at his old videos and photos... looking at him now, I often wonder how did I ever survived those years? Soon, it won't just be the two of us left at home. There are going to be changes... I hope he won't ever feel left out nor neglected. I hope I will have the energy to devote to him because quite frankly he requires all the attention especially when he's brewing lots of ideas and whatnots when he's playing...
I pray for strength, grace, and serenity to get past these mood swings and discomforts so I don't snap at my poor little boy wonder.
2 comments:
*hugs*
che, he wont feel left out..the way you are as a mom is so sweet,and akio will only feel he is given a responsibility as a kuya than being left out as the 'old baby'...
im sure youll incorporate him into the taking care of the baby so he feels part of the entire process of a family thats growing..
waaahhh, from an outsiders point of view (and not a mom) i could feel what youre feeling....*sending you wonderful vibes and chakras*
love,love,love...
hala oi, kuya na gyud kaayo tan-awon si akio. i know what you mean when you get sad looking at his old photos and videos. even i get sad looking at benjamin's earlier photos (and he's only 3 months, imagine!).
there will be changes, T, but wonderful changes. akio will be so engaged and so in love with his little sis he won't feel neglected. and right now, you are doing your best. just rest and take it easy, dearie.
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